There are a million philosophies, psychological strategies, spiritual guides, and personal ways of dealing with death. So which way can one really choose? Do we sit and stray life away with how cruel life really is that it does not even stop when literally, our lovers, pass away? Do we try to see a shrink and somehow cope? Even the word itself already seems impossible to me. How can I just cope and accept the fact that I will never be able to see the one who I loved so much smile once again? Or see him be stupid or flirtatious? Do I develop a meditative approach? Do I live my life pretending like I just don't care? Can I really stay as numb as I am forever? Because staying numb is good--it leaves room for living life without that excruciating pain in the heart. I just live my life, go to work and school and interact with people as if nothing eventful has taken place in my life in the past 48 hours. Maybe I should just at least accept the fact that something has just died in me along with this person? Maybe I can rebuild myself someday or maybe I'll just always be... broken.
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